Friday, April 8, 2011

Intentions.


I want my intentions to be clear. Memories and concepts I express are from my perspective, not Katie's. I try to convey objectively and thoughtfully but I do not speak for Katie with anything I write with fear of misrepresentation. I take as many details of our life in account when I write and speak, but I can never expect myself to reach perfection in this task. By the nature of these writings and our relationship, an opportunity is present for fallacy.

I cannot encompass all of her personality and concepts in life with my writings. She had relationships with many friends and family members, as well as personal thoughts, that I cannot represent. I base everything I write on our interactions and discussions. Our knowledge for one another was immense and growing exponentially, but was bound by the structure of our relationship. 

I can only offer my perspective. I wish I could present more, but that would be naive. At times, this is upsetting; but I would rather be honest with myself and others than to portray Katie in a misconceived, absolute manner. I write in her honor alone.  

"It's as if one had a mosaic done in very, very, small, fine stones- one million of them. Then it was destroyed but somebody made a copy of it- but only using a thousand stones. And so the thousand stones still have the same colors and the same kind of arrangement; but much more coarse-grained, in a different medium, different stones. The original has been destroyed, but the copy exists in a coarse-grained version."
                                -Douglas Hofstadter 

1 comment:

  1. You are doing fine...keep writing please. It makes us happy that you cared so deeply and honestly for Katie...

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